My Four Year Old

We celebrated four years of Sophia today. My sweet girl who made me a Mama all these years ago. I love her so much more than the day we met, her face convincing me that love at first sight is a real thing. I will always remember wiggling her to cry in that first minute together because she came out so quiet, ready to cuddle. She still loves to cuddle these days and while we've been packing she's been my bedmate. Every night I climb into our bed and whisper I love you to her. She always smiles sweetly in her sleep and wiggles closer to me. I don't know how I'll send her back to her own room in our new house. 

She is a girl who is destined to make others feel good and valued. She knows how to be honest but still finds a level of sensitivity that allows you to feel how much she cares. Today as I found myself experiencing what I perceive as an anxiety attack, it was her calm and quiet words from the backseat that grounded me and allowed me to carry on with what I need to do. I feel some Mom-guilt that I was anything other than kind and patient today but that's a fact of life. I'm so grateful for her forgiving heart and her love that is always a constant. 

One of my favorite things she says to me lately is "Mom, are we going to go on an adventure today?" She is always up for trying new things and believes that we bring our camera because to otherwise we will forget all our memories. She lives in the moment and only occasionally lets a little mess slow her down. She doesn't like to be dirty but if she's too busy to stop she'll say "its ok, it will dry" or "its just a little mess. It's ok Mom." She never stops talking. She has an opinion on everything and she loves to get in the last word. 

I could go on and on. I'll wrap this up with a moment from this morning. When we came downstairs she stood infront of the couch and looked herself up and down. She paused and then sat in her seat looking a little discouraged. When I asked her what was wrong she replied "am I four Mom?" She thought this morning she would wake up someone different being big bad four. Little did she know, she is already the perfect four year old. I wouldn't change a thing about her. Happy birthday my darling girl!