Middle Child Instruction Manual

Can someone tell me where to find an instruction manual for the middle child? I'll pay big bucks if someone can give me a copy specific to middle daughters. I think Lucy is trying to make me quit this Mom gig I've got going on. She is doing everything in her power lately to test and try me, especially when she knows I'm already worn out. Pull your hair Mom? Don't mind if I do. Poke Isla's eye balls out? I'm sure that feels great. Take every toy your sister is already quietly playing with? Go right ahead. Pee not only your pants but on the fresh bedding you just sat on? Double the fun. Yell the same thing over and over again even after you've been acknowledged? Keep it coming. The list goes on and on. 

I literally sat and cried tonight after a very defeating day of Lucy because sometimes I feel like I am ruining her. After the intentional pee on the bed, I broke down and got upset with her. Her bottom lip rolled out, eyes staring down at the floor. I sent her to bed with a bad feeling in my heart. I felt so done and frustrated. It took about 4 minutes worth of tears before I found myself walking into her room to scoop up her tiny body to change that feeling. I sat there and I held her, whispering kind words and positive reinforcement in her ears. I remind myself often that as parents we have the power to make or break our children. I feel like we are a little too hard on Lucy sometimes and I want nothing but to see her succeed, to see her shine. She is a bright, happy, energetic, extremely loving, passionate soul. I hope she always knows I love her most and that I am her biggest cheerleader. Thank goodness for tiny extremely forgiving little hearts. 

Happy Sunday!