I've realized a few things as I reflect on where I am today. I have realized that a fresh start doesn't mean a clean slate. You don't have to drop everything to start over. Sometimes its a matter of refocusing and continuing to move forward. That's what we've done. I've had probably 100 fresh starts this year alone and no matter how difficult it's been, it's working for us. We are rising above the challenges we've been handed and are determined to come out on top.
I have also learned to focus on what I have, rather than what I don't. It sounds so simple, so silly to state but how many of us spend time looking around at the talents and lives of others wishing they were our own. We have so, so much to be grateful for. Every day I look in the faces of my beautiful girls and tell them how grateful I am to be their Mom. I remind them how much they are worth to me. How fulfilled I am simply spending every day with them. It is the best.
Lastly, for tonight anyway, it is better to write than not to write at all. I wish I was caught up. I still plan to get caught up because heaven knows there is no hope for my girls "baby books" I started once upon a time. If I can do anything, I will keep writing. I will keep preserving these memories in whatever way I can so the girls can look back and see the life full of adventure I am trying to give them. I don't want them to forget that they have always been my greatest adventure. I feel inspired tonight to start here, to start with today and let the rest find it's place in it's own time.
September 21, 2018
We were up with the sun today and out the door by 9am. Sometimes it's those forced starts to the day that make for the best days of all. I can't say I'm always motivated to get out and get going but once I'm gone, the day is filled with potential. Today turned into one of those "whoa, check that out! Lets stop here for a second" kind of days. From the hills of Washing State University to the streets of downtown Portland, I wanted to soak it all in. You see, we're on the go again soon. Back to Calgary, back to a bitter cold winter that we weren't really planning on. Plans change making it funny that we even make "plans" at all.
Today started with a plan to eat ice cream for breakfast at Salt & Straw but turned into a day of much more. We did indeed eat our ice cream for breakfast (don't worry, they had eggs and fruit before we left home) but we also stopped to smell a beautiful flower shop on the side of the road. We pretended to be guests at the Ace Hotel to take a picture infront of their cool sign and go in an old school photobooth for the first time. I'd like to say the girls were the only stunned ones in there but I had no clue it would start taking pictures so fast so we all looked a bit out of sorts. I need to remember to put those photo strips in this blog book when I get to printing it. We found a pink wall, perfect for picture taking where I also fell flat on my butt over a piece of cement in the parking lot because I wasn't paying attention. My heel still hurts and I'm sure Sophia would still be laughing if she could replay that moment over again. I hit it hard. And after long naps today, we found ourselves pulling out new matching Halloween jammies and watching Cinderella for a movie night. I love the fall and in just a few hours it will officially be in season. My heart is grateful. My heart is full. I'll pretend momentarily I'm from Texas just so I can say happy fall ya'll!
Sophia's sweater here
Flower headbands here
Lucy's dress here
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